letih

aku dah letih

letih hati..letih badan..letih otak..letih semua

i wanna stop now and leave everything behind

but i cant

why?

because

 im not a coward

and im not a jerk

and im not selfish

and i care about you.a lot

and the main reason is because

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

StotheHtotheItotheT

i did something BAD.. really REALLY bad..and now i'm regretting every bit of it. im such a fool.i know.


=( how i wish i could turn back time. i wont do such things.  sedihnya :(
i need my bestfriend.now.. but she's pregnant, so i wont bug her with my problem.. nanti dia pening.. kesian dia.. 
shit shit!! kepala rasa pening.. otak sangat letih.. SHITTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bodohnya aku.. 


tidakkkk.... apa aku nak buat ni?? i would do ANYTHING to make it right..  
fuck lah.. aku x suka lah nak fikir benda benda ni.. rasa semak perut semak otak.semak semua.. 


kalau semak semak macam ni kena mandi dan 'buang' segala apa yang patut so that semak samun hilang..hahahahahahahhahahha (tengah stress pun sempat ni buat perangai bodo la aku ni)


apa2 lah.ill think of something.. setiap masalah ada jalan penyelesaian.. aicewahhhh..haha 
bye

kerja

haih penat.penat.aku penat! aku dah penat kerja selama seminggu!!..hahak! cakap macam dah setaun kerja..ceyh ja kan? kali ni nak post pasal kerja saje..

hello my name is deeba.i am currently working at aminvestment group as teeettttt (dirahsiakan sebab bukan boss) ..monday to thursday from 845-545, friday 845-5..

1st day : nervous!! cuak!! takut gila!! sebab time tu macam takut kena buli la pastu nanti takut x dapat geng la pastu nanti takut x sempat makan la.macam macam la.. but everything was ok.. :) aku dapat new friends jugak..so first day was just fine..

2nd day : dah start bosan sebab xdak keja.. cemuih gila habaq hang! so kacau2 orang saje..

3rd and 4th day : pon bosan jugak.. oh naik monorail kaki kena pijak!! sakit!! sakit sangat! da la monorail tu macam tin sardin dah..haih terpaksa cium bau masam2 orang semua..da x leh nak elak.. almaklumlah aku kan "tinggi"..

5th day : 1st time naik metro bus.. keluar rumah awal gila babi naik tren turun masjid jamek pastu jalan sikit naik metro bus sampai betul2 depan ambank.dah lah sekejap sangat2..xsampai 10 minutes..kalau monorail kena jalan lagi pastu da lah lama sebab kena berebut..

so lepas ni, naik bus saje :) boleh bangun lambat sikit :p

pastu lunch tadi jumpa kak safa kat the weld..dia ajak beli makanan kat pasar belakang the weld tu.. pasar tu macam ala2 jalan tar juga..aku beli koey teaw kerang rm2.50! sedap weh! haha makanan kat cafe x sedap..dah lah mahal! cekik daghah betui -_______-"

so officemates, see you on monday keh.. :)

bye semua,,

♥ HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATYL ♥!!

nur zatil ismah binti sidek, HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY!!! 
oppss tekantoi umur da tua..hahaha 


so atyl, may all your birthday dreams and wishes come true..
thank you sooo much for being here with me all this time..
we've been friends for 5 years (lebih kurang la)..let's be friends FOREVER ok?
aku nak tengok kau kawin n aku nak jadi anak kau punye mummy jugak nanti tau..hehe 


sempena birthday kau ni, aku nak kau tahu, aku sayang kau gila babi sampai mati tau..

hadiah coming soon eh..hihi sorry aku bagi tisu je untuk birthday kau ni..aku nak baling tepung kang takut aku kena terajang pulak orang tengah tidur g kacau kan..lagipun tepung pun xde tapi bole ganti ngan bedak..but still takut kaki kau melayang kat badan aku jugak..haha
aku rasa aku lupa nak cakap thanks tadi kau belanja makan..
THANKS A LOT ATYL!! for everything! :)
♥ kau baaaaaaaaaaaanyakk sangat tau..sebanyak rumah2 kat malaysia..
rumah kampung taman teres sume sekali lah..hehe ok dah boleh stop mengarut dah ni.. sekali lagi, SELAMAT HARI JADI YANG KE 23 ATYL SAYANG.. 


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p/s : tengok tulisan colour pink..special tuk ko je ni weh :p